The wind that blew in the early morning was gently moving the curtain. The room was a little dark since the sun had not yet risen. He could only hear the birds at this time in this big city. Although he was not in a state to listen to the birds…
“I am in the same place again…” he mumbled. Why was he always faced with the same feeling of restlessness? “What more can I do, I have tried everything!” he thought. So it should not have happened, but why?
Sometimes everything we try to control falls apart even more. While holding on to one end, the other end is crumbling in pieces. We think we have done everything. But isn’t that the problem? Is it possible to do everything? Maybe we need to stop for a while and not do it.
A person can get stuck on a solution that they have convinced themselves of. That is why they keep trying and keep making mistakes… They cannot see the problem or the solution. The problem just changes its shape and comes back. Then comes disappointment… One constantly incapacitates oneself. They think they cannot do it, they cannot manage it, they are weak. However, is there a creature in this world more talented than humans? The limits of what a human can do if he wants are so wide…
So how do those who can produce solutions do it? What is different about them? What does it mean to really struggle?
Mete had been quite overwhelmed lately. He couldn’t get enough even if he put it in full, and it wouldn’t fill up even if he put it in empty. Debts, bills to be paid, needs… They all looked at the past as if to say ‘you failed again’. However, he had changed jobs four months ago so that he could have a better income. His new job would provide a breather from all his problems. He had started very enthusiastically. He and his wife were so happy with the first month’s salary… The next month, their car broke down unexpectedly. Mete said, “Such things happen,” and he took care of it right away. After all, his salary had increased, so it wouldn’t be a big problem. The next month, the landlord suddenly wanted to raise the rent. They objected at first, even considered going to court. But they had been living very well for years. The rents around the neighborhood was also increased… Mete thought, “I’m glad I changed jobs, otherwise what would we do?”
He had chosen to earn more money as a solution to his problems. However, more money meant more problems. Since he couldn’t see this, he got used to looking for more every time he was in trouble. Of course, there were so many things to blame in life… “This country can’t be lived in, how can there be such inflation… We don’t earn what we deserve… If only we could get out of this country…” His days were passing by with these words. What could someone who always had more on his mind earn?
Now life had played its last card. The company he had just started working at was downsizing. When the manager called Mete, it hadn’t even crossed his mind that he would be fired. Why would they fire an employee they had transferred with such a high salary? But it had happened, the department Mete was dealing with was closing. What would he do now? How would they get by? He had nothing but a few thousand liras on the side. They hadn’t been able to get out of the water enough to save. When there was nothing left to blame, he started to blame himself. “Nothing will come of you, you couldn’t even do one thing!” It was as if all the solutions had been finished…
When a person cannot decipher their problems correctly, the solutions are also hidden. When the solutions are hidden, they feel hopeless. Hopelessness drags a person to the bottom… It destroys the desire to recover again
If he could turn back time, he would never get involved in this. All the extra expenses incurred in recent months had now made sense. Mete realized with a lump in his throat that he had made a mistake. On the other hand, a bitter smile came to his face because he could see the problem. Like the rays of the sun slowly penetrating inside, hope had arisen for Mete as well. Even though he didn’t know how he would recover, being able to see the problem had relieved him a little. He followed the trail, thought about the days and months that had happened to him. He faced the things he let go in order to achieve more. He was going to start everything over again, he had to.
He took a breath of the air that had filled in. He knew it would be difficult, but he had seen it. The solution was almost there, where the problem was…
With the hope of finding the right solutions to our problems…
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